February 2011
4 posts
guess whuuutt
the post in which i said that i cried after looking through the photos…
yup i actually typed it out in a note on fb. My profile’s pretty in active, so i figured that no one would really see it. it was just a cyber reminder of what happened, i guess.
thennnnnn. about 2 minutes ago, Celine texted me. Asking if the note was about her and if it was, she owes me an explanation.
i...
I feel
naughty. :P
Okay, nothing big happened, only in my world would this be considered as ‘naughty’.
Or rather, out-of-the-ordinary..
So you know about the whole Celine thing and the photos on facebook.
I usually pretend that I don’t see the photos of events that I-should-have-been-invited-to-but-was-not, simply because I just don’t do the whole ‘confrontation’...
Of 18th Birthdays
I browse through all 176 photos of Celine’s birthday on facebook and cry.
I’m just not cool enough, am I?
Or hot enough, or pretty enough?
I’m sad, I really am. My heart has been mashed to pulp by facebook photos.
So I went out with
my best friends today. Lily and Celine.
Well, one of them is definitely ‘two-way-bff’ as in if i ask her who her bff is, i’d definitely be one of the first.
The other, um, lets just say that i’ll make it to her bff list a little later.
Anyway.
So I’m the kind of
(this was saved as a draft ages ago.. now i’ve completely forgotten what i intended to write....
January 2011
9 posts
I found out
why Lily never replied.
Um, so Celine’s birthday was yesterday right?
Apparently she went ‘downtown’ with a group of friends. When i found out from a mutual friend yesterday, I thought that you know, perhaps she was out with a ‘different’ gang of people. Cos she does have quite a number of close friends. So…
A best friend, Russian (haha we call her that),...
why
do I even bother do attempt to look good on the outside,
when on the inside I’m
the world’s worst daughter
the world’s worst friend
the world’s worst classmate
the world’s worst student
the world’s worst hypocrite
the world’s worst child of God
just an ugly bitch.
Imma saaaaaaaaad
panda.
I’ve just started college, Celine’s birthday’s tmr, I texted Lily to ask if they’re doing anything for her, and i didn’t receive a reply. :( i texted her at 5, now’s 10.45.
The worst thing about this all is that the fact that i know she’s the kind of person that always has her phone with her?. Yeahhh. KInd of disappointed.
And what? Am I not...
“tumblr rocks.”
– tumblr-ers
“I’m sorry I’m not cool enough.”
– ME
you know what?
fuck dinner.
for formality sake.
TOMORROWWILLBEBETTER’S PROFILE
This really is like a public private diary. Geddit geddit?
I pen down my heartbreakingly honest moments here, so that you know I, on the other side of the world, am going through the same thing that you are.
Or so that you can delight in my misery and that you are not facing whatever it is that I am facing.
Or you can curse me because I rant about...
leaked tears
yeah yeah. i know i’m a heartless bitch.
whatev.
i wish i was brought up in a household where members showed their affections for each other freely.
you think i don’t think about helping out more? you think i don’t think about f*cking helping you carry your bags, your things, helping you get things from downstairs when you’re upstairs and run upstairs when you’re...
lost
i went on facebook.
i found so many new year wishes.
..on other people’s walls.
none were for me.
i saw a friend i thought was a ‘best’ friend post a ny greeting on someone else’s wall.
but not mine.
i see friends going out for trips
but i wasn’t invited.
i don’t want to be depressed.
but how can i not be?
help me, God.
was this my fault?
December 2010
2 posts
“I am in love with hope.”
– Mitch Albom, have a little faith
lost.
« where do i belong?»
What am I to do?
Do I belong? Umm.. nope.
Does ‘belonging’ matter? Umm.. I don’t know.
I don’t know if ‘belonging’ matters, but I do know that ‘belonging’ gives you a sense of security, knowing that there will always be people around you to hold you up when your legs give way, to catch you when you slip,...